Monday, March 16, 2020

Just A Little Horse

Hilarious, aren't I?  I'm sure staying at home for a couple of weeks will only improve my wit and wisdom.  Yeah, we're doing what seems like the best choice for us.  It also seems like that is the right thing for us to do for others, and it's always nice when those things are in agreement.  Still, there is so much we do not know and things are still changing, and, yeah, I don't have answers to that.  

I am finding it helpful to reach back into past experiences and use what I learned then.  For most of last year, we had a hospital bag packed and ready to go at a moment's notice, and then we spent the summer going in and out of the hospital.  I remember how I felt during those first several months--waiting for something to happen, worrying that something would happen, not fully sleeping so I could spring into action whenever whatever was going to happen would eventually happen.  The hospitalization phase was a bit different, though poor sleep (hospital sleep is not quality sleep) remained.  Find a problem, fix a problem, find more problems to be managed.  They're all very urgent and will kill, you learn.  Also, everything's a balancing act, and we'll have to wait and see.  More tests, more juggling of medicines, more realization that there is a lot of unknown we're dealing with.  It was similar to the CHF diagnosis time.  Anyway, we go back to the basics and do what we can with our abilities and resources.  We remember the lessons we learned then and apply that knowledge today.  

That's what we're doing here.  We're as prepared as we can be.  We try not to focus on what we cannot do or control.  We're texting, calling, and emailing each other.  We wave at the neighbors.  We watch a lot of television.  We're thinking about you all. I knit some (if the little horse isn't your favorite, maybe you'll like something else better).  I'm thinking about the new Animal Crossing game.  We play cards.  We pray.  Some things don't change much.   

Wednesday, January 01, 2020

And Another Year Opens

Happy New Year!  It's so nice to see people looking forward with hope, promise, and optimism.  I don't know what all 2020 holds for me, but I know some of what I plan to do. 
  • I'm going to work for what's important to me and to build up others.
    • Some of this will be a continuation of things I've been doing.  Some of it will be new to me.  I'm continuing to learn, so I suppose some of these will be things that I don't have any real ideas about right now.  It's going to be an adventure.
    • Sometimes working for what's important means fighting for what's important.  The quote, "Get in trouble:  good trouble, necessary trouble," from Rep. John Lewis comes to mind.
  • We're going to visit Texas.  
    • There's a bit to unpack on this one, and still some things to process.  That being said, it's an exciting adventure. 
  • I'm going to take better care of myself.
    • I didn't make that as much of a priority last year, and it showed.  
  • I'm going to reach out more.
    • I don't know just what this looks like, but it is important.  I may try some different things and see what is a good fit for me and my relationships.  I accept that I could be awkward with it, some of it might work and some might not, and that I can only choose for me, not for others.          
What are your plans?  Is there anything visible on the horizon for you that you find exciting?  
One last little thought on my mind.
Every day I Promise 
I Will Change Tomorrow 
New Year's Came 
And Everybody Took the Same Vow 
We'll Get it Better Starting Now
The Next Day, Glen Phillips