I am finding it helpful to reach back into past experiences and use what I learned then. For most of last year, we had a hospital bag packed and ready to go at a moment's notice, and then we spent the summer going in and out of the hospital. I remember how I felt during those first several months--waiting for something to happen, worrying that something would happen, not fully sleeping so I could spring into action whenever whatever was going to happen would eventually happen. The hospitalization phase was a bit different, though poor sleep (hospital sleep is not quality sleep) remained. Find a problem, fix a problem, find more problems to be managed. They're all very urgent and will kill, you learn. Also, everything's a balancing act, and we'll have to wait and see. More tests, more juggling of medicines, more realization that there is a lot of unknown we're dealing with. It was similar to the CHF diagnosis time. Anyway, we go back to the basics and do what we can with our abilities and resources. We remember the lessons we learned then and apply that knowledge today.
That's what we're doing here. We're as prepared as we can be. We try not to focus on what we cannot do or control. We're texting, calling, and emailing each other. We wave at the neighbors. We watch a lot of television. We're thinking about you all. I knit some (if the little horse isn't your favorite, maybe you'll like something else better). I'm thinking about the new Animal Crossing game. We play cards. We pray. Some things don't change much.
